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A more productive day today but I feel old and sad. And like this is not my life. Not really. Like I will wake from a dream and Gerard will be at the sink doing the dishes and talking crap and making jokes.Hi I'm Janet. The title for this photo is "A more productive day today but I feel old and sad. And like this is not my life. Not really. Like I will wake from a dream and Gerard will be at the sink doing the dishes and talking crap and making jokes." I used to share this life in the slightly gritty, snake infested northern suburbs of Melbourne with my partner Gerard. I realised last night at a social gathering that I still refer to him as my partner. Present tense. Even though he died in February 2015. And my mum in November 2014. Grief is part of me at the moment. I try to escape it, every way I can think of but it is ever present. Hopefully one day I will emerge. And life will be better.

Our house is part of an estate built in the 1940s for returned servicemen. It's charming but small by modern standards, something we've kind of got used to. I'm 51 and share my life with Grace and a scampy poodle called Rupert.

Also fat, feminist, periodically crazy, somewhat unemployed and over it all.
I like the beach. Reading. And making things. Also (modest amounts of) beer even though it is not ideal with my medication.
Trying to like cooking, gardening and housework again.
I enjoy taking photos and have been going mad with Instagram.
My email address: muppinstuff(at)gmail(dot)com